Thursday, November 22, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving

It's a good day....It's raining out!!!! Yay!!! Who would have thought I would EVER be THANKFUL to see rain...but I'm in Georgia and we've been having the serious drought...and we need this rain and lots more so bad...It's been really hard to see the streams and waterfalls with only a trickle of water in them lately...and we been on a no fires restriction so I haven't planned a backpacking trip for some time... after all it's really hard to camp in the winter with out a camp fire..So I'm THANKFUL that I didn't have a trip planned this weekend...

I had Bubba and Lil Bit (9 yr old grandson & 4 yr old granddaughter) Tuesday night and all day yesterday....there was no school but The Kid still had to work....I really don't see them enuff and this was a good chance to spend some time with them....We had a blast....The kids love to come over to my house but I'm usually busy doing something SO I made sure that I didn't have plans this time....they set my 2 man tent up in the living room and that's were they slept and then yesterday we went to the park and walked around the lake..we had a picnic at the half way mark where there is a bunch of big bolders for them to play on....It's ONLY 3 miles but it was quite the walk for Lil Bit..I ended up carrying her the last mile..Lil Bit is at a fun age..she is quite the character....I love when she is talking and someone (usually her brother) will start interupt and start talking over her...she says "Helllloooooo, I'm talking here" she had me in stitches both days....everything is "OH MY Gawd" and she has this really cute lil southern accent....she is still at the age that she likes to cuddle...I guess I really needed cuddling too because we did alot of it...
Bubba is the best big brother (most of the time) he really watched out for her on the big boulders and it's so cute when you see him with his arm around her while they are walking...he did offer to carry her on his back but I said no because I didn't want him to get too tired to finish the walk because there is NO WAY I could carry him...by the time we finished the 3 miles he said his legs were hurting...I forgot how long 3 miles is to kids....hey a couple of years ago 3 miles would have been impossible for me...They did GREAT....
I'm so THANKFUL that I have such great GrandKids!!!

My friend Hayat who I haven't seen in forever called me yesterday and wanted to go out to a club where they give Salsa Dancing lessons (free) and have a Free Buffet... I said "sure" so after The Kid came and got the grandkids I went out for a couple of hours....It was fun but I realized how out of shape I am after an hour of turns and fancy steps learning the Salsa...I do wish I was more cordinated when it comes to dancing..I love watching other people...there was this older married couple who where so good..they told me that they have been dancing together for 30 years..how sweet is that?

I'm going over to The Kids house for Thanksgiving Dinner today but I'm thinking about stopping at the gym first and getting a good workout....I was planning on going to the park and running but since it's raining I guess I'll have to change my plans...THANKFULLY I still have the gym..and after dinner at The Kids I've been invited over to my friends Jo's for an evening of relaxing with her family and some of our "Jazz" friends....It will be fun especially since I don't have to be back at work until Monday...we've been know to stay up all night just talking and having fun...

It's nice to know that I have so many Positive things to be THANKFUL for on this day of Thanksgiving....

Saturday, November 17, 2007

What's Wrong with ME?

Like everything else in my life I keep putting off coming here to blog...I think about it when I'm in my car, in bed and even when I'm driving the bus...I think of all kinds of things I could be writing...but when it comes to actually coming into my office and logging in to my site..I think to MYSELF...I'll wait till later to do it....and then NEVER do it....

And it's not only blogging that I'm doing this with..it's cleaning my house, paying bills, going to the gym or even weighing myself...It's so easy NOT to do ANYThINg....just to sit around and read...Oh I go to work everyday and I've even did a 5K a couple of weeks ago...oh yeah and I did do Bruce's Panthertown Backpacking Trip (the one I really wanted to do...it was good) and I've hung out with my friend J...it's not like I'm NOT doing things...just not things I know I should be doing...

I could use the excuse that this is the Month that I'm always depressed....but I don't really feel depressed...I mean I laugh with my freinds and co workers...it's just that I have no energy or motivation to do most of the things that I need to do....

I also tell myself it's because I have NO monies...I'm more in debt now than I ever have.(why does everything have to Cost sooo much)..but I also tell myself that I can see my way out of it....I just have to be patient and chip at it a little at a time and do without alot of the things I got used to having...like Healthy food, clothes and books....you know the essentials in my life...
I gave up my protein drinks and all of my supplements because it was costing me over $150 a month....now I know that I can buy the cheaper version of all those things but I keep putting it off....I pass up alot of the things that my friends are doing because I just don't have the monies to keep up with them..and I'm not comfortable with them paying my way ALL the time..I get so tired of having to say "NO, I don't have the monies"...I'm lucky in that my friends are GREAT and they won't take the answer NO most of the times....I went to Savannah with a group of 6 and stayed at a B&B in September which my friend "L" paid for...we had a blast....and then last month a group of about thirteen of us went to the Mountains, rented a cabin and went White Water Rafting....again I didn't have to pay anything because another friend paid for my part...but you know I get so tired of NOT being able to Pay my own way....the months that I was out of work and the 6 months that I worked for LA Fitness really put me behind...I made a mistake of living off my Credit Cards...something I knew better than to do but didn't feel like I had a choice..but now I'm working to get them paid off....
I seem to be obsessing over this probably more than I should...letting Moanin' Mona rule the day....

well, most of the time LIFE IS GOOD for me....I mean I have so many things to be thankful for...It's just that pushing myself to do the things I know would make be feel better just sounds like to much work...and is so easy to put it off for today, telling myself that there is always tommorow....

I wanted to wait till I had something funny, something uplifting...something to make me laugh before I blogged again...but that doesn't seem to be happening...all I ever seem to blog is this self pity stuff....damn...what's wrong with me?