What do you want to be when you grow up?

I'm thinking about changing jobs AGAIN...I've pretty much came to the conclusion (after 6 months) that I'm not made for sales...altho I love the gym and love meeting lots of new people, I just can't seem to get it when it comes to pushing people into buying memberships at a price that they think is too much...so far since I've been employed I have made ONE commission check...the rest of the time I have been earning MINIMUM wage and putting in ALOT of hours just so I can keep my head above water..I no longer have a life.I've been made to feel guilty if I want to take anytime off from work..even my usual days off..so I end up working 10-12 hr days 6 to 7 days a week...ALL FOR MINIMUM WAGE....I have basically given up all I really love to do...working out, playing racquetball, camping/backpacking ....just so I can make minimum wage? ....and I really don't see it getting any better...So you ask WHY have I stayed with it for this long? Well, I guess the answer could be that I'm just not smart....and because I really don't want to go back to an office job...the thought of having to "fit in" with a new job that will require me to actually have to learn new things scares me to death....I know that I don't "catch on" to things as fast as most people and that changes come hard for me...my memory just isn't all that good any more (maybe I'm in the beginning stages of alhemizers)....So where does that leave me?

Today I spoke with some recruiters for the County School District...they are looking for Bus Drivers and I think that I could really do this...the monies isn't all that bad. I've always thought that school bus drivers were just old retired people or people who wanted part time work but I found out that isn't necessarily true..that you can actually earn a pretty good living driving bus..
So I'm looking at the pro's and con's of this job before I burn all my bridges (altho I think they may already be on fire).

It's not a glamorous job (I just can see people's expression when I tell them I'm a school bus driver...but hey I think I can live with that)

And I would have to put up with RugRats!!! but it's only for a couple of hours and not all at once...

I would have to Drive a big ass Bus...not sure if this is a con or pro...hey, for once everyone would have to get out of my Way on the road...now that might be fun...

I would get EVERY Weekend and ALL the holidays off...and the whole summer if I wanted it...you are guaranteed 30 hrs a week ALL year long no matter what....you can pick up extra monies by doing Field trips and other things....

My hours would be easy....a couple of hours in the morning, then a couple more in the afternoon...the rest of the day is mine to do what ever I want..(work out at the gym, play racquetball or what ever I wanted without feeling guilty)

the monies isn't all that bad...not fantastic but I think I could make it on it...they start at $12.54 and can earn up to $18 an hour...and again you can earn more by taking side jobs...

The benefits are GREAT with the county...

Did I say that I could have the summer off and still get paid?...so maybe I wouldn't take the Whole summer off but if I wanted to say ....go backpacking on the AT for a couple of weeks..I could..Or I could even go up to Alaska with my friend Conry next summer ...Or I could even go home to Wyo to see my Mom for more than a few days...If I wanted to ...do you see where I'm going with this?

Well, this could be the deciding factor for me...I'm 57 years old and I know that I will have to work the rest of life and I really can't see me doing sales for the next 20 years but once you are on with the county it's a pretty good shot that you will stay...I was told that they have a 73 year old driver...

and I wouldn't have to wear that Damn polo shirt everyday that looks like shit on me....I could dress like I want...well maybe not ...but I could at least be comfortable....

So it looks like there are definitely more good things about being a bus driver than bad..now if only I can get hired on....

so I guess I'll get busy and post my application online. I had problems getting into the site earlier, I may have to go to one of their Kiosh's (sp?) tomorrow (which is suppose to be one of my days off but I didn't make any sales today so I feel compelled to go to work...not good)...

I just hope IF I get this gig I'm not making ANOTHER Big mistake....but I have to tell you I keep dreaming about being able to enjoy my days off again....who'd thunk that would be all that important to me....LOL...