I'm so bummed

but I refuse to get discouraged!

I've been looking over future events for my outdoor club and I'm either too out of shape (since I've gained all this weight back) or too poor....

I did go on an overnight back packing trip last month and that's when I realized this extra 20/25 pounds really slow me down...it's not fair to the other campers when I can't keep up...so I guess if I really want to do this (AND I DO) then I need to get off my fat ass and get busy losing this weight and getting back into shape...
I've given myself one month because that's when Bruce has scheduled the Panther Town backpacking trip (Oct 20th) and I really want to go on this one..it's will be the one year anniversary of my first backpacking trip which was Panther Town...
This should give me the incentive to really buckle down and get busy...NO MORE EXCUSES...I know I can do it...I've done it before....I want to fit in all that gear that I bought especially for hiking...right now I can't get anything buttoned up and even if I did then I can't move...and believe me when you are hiking you need to be able to breath and move easily...LOL...

There are 4 other events before that that I won't be able to go on that I really want too but I have to be realistic ....
1. Introductory to Rock Climbing....this is an indoor thing that costs $30 and you need to be in shape to pull yourself up....This is something I've been wanting to try for awhile but now that the chance is here..I can't do it and it's all my own fault...the only thing I can tell myself is...I will be ready the next time they offer it....and knowing these guys ...they will offer it again...and I'm going to be ready....
2. Caving trip to Cedar Ridge....I haven't done any caving yet..last year I was thinking about trying it...altho tight places aren't one of my favorite things...I'm told this is a fairly easy caving trip...it doesn't cost anything but you must be in shape....
3. Fall Creek Falls State Park...Cabin Camping and waterfall hike....cost $57....sounds like a great hike..but is rated as difficult...I did a couple of difficult hikes last winter but again don't feel that I could do this without holding up everyone...plus the monies ...which I don't have...again...maybe next year..
I'm hoping that I will be in better shape and that I will have the monies when Paula posts her ZipLine trip...we talked about it on my last hike with her and it's one of the things I really want to do....

So since I really love doing outdoor activities especially in the fall and winter I had better get a plan on how I'm going to get in shape to do all the things I want...

1. Start running again at the park on the weekends if not during the day when I'm not working...there are two parks that I go too that have off trails that I can put on a backpack and walk/run just to get myself ready...that is after I get myself built back up a bit.....
2. Stop SNACKING....if I'm not at home but out running or working out at the gym this should be easy for me to do....And start eating regular meals...it's been to easy to just fix myself something easy...usually something totally carb...need to get back to the basics like fish (grilled salmon, tilapai, or chicken) and some steamed veggies.....no more peanut butter and honey wraps...I think I've gotten addicted to peanut butter in the last few months...it doesn't matter that it's natural...it still has lots of Calories....
3. Get back to the gym at least 3 x a week...and work out with the free weights..I really love how I feel after doing this...my excuse has been that since I don't drive by the gym anymore on my way home that it's easier to go home than in the opposite direction....This IS JUST an EXCUSE...it only take me 10 - 15 mins from where I park the bus to get to either one of the gyms that I can use....
I've only been playing racquetball on Mondays but talked my partner into playing on Thurs too....since this is something I really enjoy ...it gets me into the gym and since we don't play until 7 pm it also gives me a hour to work out before playing....hmmmm sounds like a plan...

NOW DOES THIS ALL SOUND FAMILAR? .....HAVEN'T I SAID ALL THIS BEFORE? So what makes it differant this time?

I REALLY WANT TO BE IN SHAPE FOR THAT HIKE IN OCTOBER AND I KNOW I HAVE TO START NOW....NO MORE PUTTING IT OFF AND MAKING EXCUSES!!!!